I will keep this one short to gain a burst of both inspiration and motivation.
I will also keep this impactful. So to maintain this morning’s energy, I will get right to the point.
We need that fire. We need that blast of energy.
But more, we need to be mindful.
Another boundary to consider is to know where you came from.
You want to know where you’ve been because if this was not the place you want to be, then remember your details, and keep yourself from being there again.
It would appear that everyone has a memory of a time or place that they never want to be again.
It would also appear that we have thoughts and memories of hard times or of hard places, to which we know what we went through and somehow, we survived these times.
Somehow-
I admit that again, this entry is another that is subjective to me. However, as a means to be relatable, I will describe certain times and certain aspects of my past life to express a thought, feeling, and the emotional content that took place.
For example, there are times when the sounds around us act like an exclamation point. Sometimes the mere sound of the clock ticking can be the exclamation point of impending doom. And I know that feeling.
I know the sound of doors slamming shut and the feelings that result afterwards. I know about the coldness of loneliness. I understand these things very well in fact. To the point where I know that I never want to experience them again, I know that I had to make changes. Otherwise, nothing else would change and hence, I could never improve.
I understand the thoughts that coincided with my worst occasions.
I understand the emotional content as well as the body’s aftermath and the chemistry which took place between myself and the others who were in my life at the time.
I know where my worst moments took place. And I know where I was and where I never want to be again.
Yet, life happens and although we might think the threat of something repeating itself is gone, no. Life can turn at any given moment, which means we have to learn to understand ourselves and how to execute our plans, effectively.
I can recall the accounts of my life in two forms; as in times that I would like to relive again, and times that I would never wish on my worst enemy.
Know these things.
List them, if you have to.
Let this be your contract with “Self.”
When you were at your worst or alone; or when you found yourself in the aftermath of a great downfall; know where you were and if you didn’t like it, or if you realize this was the worst place for you, then mark this down.
Set a date for yourself. Give yourself a timeline.
Rise to the challenge and look for the angles or the escapes. Look for the plans because if this is where you are now or if this is your square one,; and if this is your ground zero, so-to-speak, then make your boundaries strong by planning your rebirth. Give yourself the right to have value by building your resurrection, or in whichever way you want to express your recovery, find out what this means to you and then do it.
Do whatever needs to be done but do not go at it wildly or without a plan or without monitoring your abilities and your energy.
Do not underestimate yourself and your capability; however, it is also important that you do not overestimate yourself or take on too much. Otherwise, the uphill climb can and will be too much and the pace you set will become unrealistic – otherwise, unheroic.
Therefore, to rescue the rest of your life, now is the time to be your own hero.
Save yourself from now until the end of time.
I have things that I want to see and places that I want to be. I have places in my mind that I’ve only heard about and places that I’ve read about. These things are goals of mine. I have pretended to be there. I’ve thought about what it might look like to be in a village near the Swiss Alps. I’ve thought about different places in Europe, which is another goal of mine too.
There are experiences I’ve never had and I call these things my “yets.”
I used to have different kinds of yets in my life.
As in, it wasn’t that bad – yet!
Or I didn’t get hurt – yet!
I don’t want those kinds of “yets” in my life.
So to them, I say:
Know where you came from.
Know what it was like to be alone or to be by yourself or to be someplace, stuck in the dead-end world of a life less-desired.
Know what you wished you had at that time and do not forget the details that brought you to that sort of place.
Do not forget the thoughts and the feelings that were with you at the time.
Do not hold them tighter than you need to hold them.
Do not over-glamorize or dramatize them.
Just remember them.
Remember the sights you want to see.
Let this be your guide.
Remember what it was like to see the sun come up or what it felt like to smell the grass on a specific day.
Remember anything that sets your sails to a place called hope.
Your boundaries are more than a guideline for how, what and who you allow in your life.
This also determines how you treat yourself and as a means to improve, or to better your standing or to keep from being where you were (at one point), now is the time to stand up, be counted and then take your next step.
Make your life look like the picture of a place you want to see or a place you want to live.
If your boundaries act as a contract then, in this case, go by the letter of the law and sign this contract with yourself first.
Everybody else can wait.
Make this be your life.
Make the sounds that once hurt you, like a door slamming shut, or the sound of someone yelling, or the sound of broken glass, or anything of the sort; let this become a distant memory that you refer to when you say, yes, that’s where I was.
But look at where I am now.
Right here!
Now go and make it so.
The Written Addiction 