I need to switch gears for this one. And please, while beliefs may vary and opinions as well, I want this to come from the heart, from me to you.
I say this with all of my heart and humbly too because while I may be grown, or so people say, I am still just a kid.
(You know?)
I suppose this is more of an offering than anything else. Again, i ask that you excuse or forgive my prose or the attempt to offer emotion as a mixture of heart and experience.
However, I offer this to you with all of my heart and will that I have – so please, I ask that you take my words into consideration. With respect to my offer, I ask that you recognize the ebbs and flows of life as we know it.
Life has a rhythm. And so do we.
We are complete with our own frequency and vibration which, somehow, is what magically attracts us to say, you and I, or how life can somehow comically and meaningfully place us on a path where I met you and you met me in a some kind of mathematic vortex. Whereas only fate would have the power to place us in this world, together, and at the same time.
I love this fact.
If nothing else; I love how this is a fact to me.
You, I mean.
The fact is, I am not here to judge or condemn. But otherwise, I am here to appreciate and enjoy and celebrate because the only thing life has shown me is that time is always moving and moments can shrivel and shrink, and people can dwindle or disappear.
But you . . .
You have a worth that is far more amazing than you could possibly imagine.
I have learned from you. This has nothing to do with age. This has nothing to do with gender or the fluidity of culture or a lack thereof.
No.
This has nothing to do with who knows more or who has seen more or the wealth in my pocket, or again, the lack thereof.
Then again, this is only another moment under the sky.
Today is nothing more than another day above the dirt, which has become a daily saying of mine for several years now.
But wait –
I have a thought for you to consider.
This is a simple thought and a helpful one at that. This is a good thought to realize because as you go through life and as you experience changes, such as the settings around you, your family, and friends, which is something that I want to touch on in a minute, or as you experience shifts and changes between you and your so-called loved ones; you are going to realize that the person you are today is not the same as the person you were two or three years ago.
I can offer that the 51 year-old version of me now does not and cannot relate or think the same as the 21 year-old version of who I was when I was younger.
I don’t know how I will view the world in the next three or four years. I don’t know where I will be on this day, next year. And neither do you.
I have no idea what my circumstances will be like. I don’t know if life will be harder or softer, or if times will be fortunate or not.
I suppose I try to live my life according to the Sanskrit poem from Kalidasa that says to “look to this day; for it is life.”
I try to live according to this plan in which Kalidasa writes that “yesterday is but a dream and tomorrow is a vision. But today, well-lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope.”
I want to live my life this way.
I can say that if my past has taught me anything, I would say that I have learned that life is both seasonal and cyclical. I have learned through proof and experience that there are times when all is right and the sky is clear. The winds are warm, and the earth is dry. Adversely, there are times when the opposite is true. There will be days when all else is the antithesis, and the sky is angry, the weather is stormy and the bones are cold. Like the leaves which have either shriveled and died or fallen to grief, the branches of trees are bare for the time being, but do not be worried – the warmth from the sun will return. Eventually, just like the stages of regenesis, life unfolds to a new process. And there we are, in our greatest renewal, like flower buds from the vine in spring; at last, the color of our life returns. In a sense, we are equally reborn and brand new, once again.
Life will be like the tides in the ocean. Fate can be like the waves which move in and out from the shoreline.
I see it this way.
Life is the breathing chest of the Great and Almighty, Mother Earth, or Earth Mother, and Goddess of all. Simply put, as the world is a representation of Her breath; the sea rises and falls as if to explain the ultimate inhale and exhale of life as we know it.
I like this version of life.
I appreciate its beauty and simplicity, even in complicated or troubled times.
I have learned that life has and will always change. I have learned that people who I believed would always be there, either passed, or they moved on, or perhaps there was a split between or a breaking of a pact or vow or maybe there was a fork in the road in which case, there is an inevitable split.
This is part of life.
I have learned that my childhood friends and the so-called kids from the neighborhood are unforgettable to me. Then again, so are the people who have inspired my life. So are the people who influenced or pushed and promoted me to go, be and do. Also, the unforgettable ones are the people who led me to think and question and who allowed me to free myself, so I could feel and be better than ever.
Even the people who rejected me or the people who put me down. Them too.
They have played an important role in my life.
I value them just as well.
I value the so-called bullies or the evil opportunists or the people who tried to keep me down (so I’d never rise above them or find myself empowered) and even the people who looked to inspire doubt or motivate me to turn inwards and fail; I am grateful for them. I am grateful for the ones who looked to trip me so I’d fall and never dare to stand up or step out of my comfort zone – I appreciate them more and more, each day.
I understand that everyone in our life is either a piece to our puzzle or they are a directional item in our life – or they are a trick of some kind to teach us what to look out for.
There are those who lie and betray and those who look to inspire an outrage, which incites the riot within, or on the other end, this eventually teaches us to find peace or, in other words, everyone we meet either puts us one step closer to our goals or they push us farther away.
I have learned that while there are friends from my past whom I love dearly and are like family, and there are people whom I would have walked through walls for or laid down in traffic; however, and at the same time, with all of my heart; I have learned that some people have to be loved from a distance, or let go, to do there own thing.
This is not to say that I am better or worse or above or below. But more, in an effort to observe, maintain, and as means to survive in this crazy world and to protect my own sanity – there are people who are meant to be with us and people who are either momentary or temporarily connected to us and that’s fine.
At the same time, and I swear this is true – The Great Almighty, the Loving Mother, and The Earth Goddess, Herself, is there for us – to allow us the right to have fate and destiny to come along and provide us with signs and warnings, and rewards and penalties too – if we fail to pay attention.
I know that as we move about this world and as we spread our wings to fly, our aim will always be for the sun. And we can shoot for this.
We can fly high.
We can try as hard as we can to fly as high or close to the sun, like Icarus himself, only in or case, this wings will not melt like young Icarus because he flew too near to the heat of the sun.
No, and I swear this to you – a time will come when your pathway and flight patterns will be clear, like an unblemished sky. This is when it happens.
This is when it’s time – to fly high.
The reasons and the irrational violations from your past will be revealed, like lessons from The Father, and The Son, and of The Holy Spirit, or even like the preaching from various forms of God, or Buddha, or the divinity, like Krisha, or like the consciousness of God-Head, enlightened and empowered; either way, I promise you that life will unfold and your troubles will unravel.
And you. . .
Yes, you.
You above all people will stand taller than you could possibly imagine.
I have learned that the wealth of your heart must be saved and shared. However, this cannot be squandered or wasted or traded for a lesser value.
I have learned so much from you.
I have learned that challenges will come and times will try us. While the trials may seem long or last longer than our eternity, nothing about us says that you and I are children of a weak or lesser God.
If there is no God or some sort of Good Orderly Direction, and if there are no such deities or divinities, or if the heavens are nothing more than a scientific phenomenon and the universe is nothing other than a vast and endless sea of infinite space – then still, look around you.
See it?
Remove yourself from the quiet desperation and allow yourself the moment to dare and stand before the light. Recognize something – you are more cherished and admired, worshipped and appreciated than you think.
(Please believe me.)
Do not be put down or held back because life moves too fast. Do not submit to unwanted opinions as truth. Understand that times do, will and always change. Therefore . . .
Do not forfeit yourself because of the changes around you or the people who’ve upset or attempted to break you. They are only as real (or important) as you allow them to be – and as for your changes and as for your friends; or with regard to your temporary lifestyles or the more permanent fixtures in your heart, as in your closest loves, your family unit, and the spirits which come from the people you love and admire – the one thing I wish someone could have impressed upon me is the one thing that I have always wished I always knew. And I mean this.
This is something that I wish I truly knew from the inside, out.
I wish I knew the following:
You are perfect the way you are
There is nothing “wrong” with you.
No, this is only a concept of the mind.
This is a commercialized judgment which you have been mistaught and, too, this is an idea that has either been passed along like a torch or due to the frustration of a life that has not come so easily, or due to an imposed assumption that is a direct result of the impurities around you, such as people, places and things; for some reason, people have been taught an inaccurate version of themselves.
Hence, you, and hence this is the reason behind my offering.
Once more, I am inspired. I am pushed and motivated. I am urged and prompted to take a stand because I am, in fact, blessed and fortunate and lucky to know you for who you are.
And equal to all the above, I am fortunate to have seen both good and bad things. I know all about the contrast between the two. I know about the beauties of the sun and the softness of the rain, quiet like a gray morning in a sleepy house. I know about these mornings when the rains come, when no one is awake in the world and us, like two children who are comforted together in the opened palm of God the Father, or if we need to remove the spiritual address of any Godly association; then fine, but even still – we are here together for a reason. It is impossible for us to be simply a misfire of energy or some sort of coincidence.
Our lives and our stories, our paths and or journeys have overlapped and coincided for a reason.
I know this.
We travel together, you and I, and I hope that our commitment towards, “always and forever” is a pact between us that remains unstoppable, like the hands of time or the breath of Mother Earth.
If not, or should I fade somehow from this earth, just know that wherever you go – you have touched a piece of my heart that has otherwise been undefined, uncharted and unnoticed by anyone else.
The most valuable lesson I have learned since my childhood is that while, yes, there are literally billions of people in this world; there are a special few who will inspire and ignite the fires within us.
And you . . .
You are my fire
You are my light
You are my person
(For always)
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