The Book of Chaos: A Quick Thing About Overthinking

 Ah the process of you,
Overthinking,
and the wonders you work.
I have heard it said that the mind
is a terrible thing to waste,
to which I say, yes,
I agree.
It’s true.

I also agree that time is a terrible thing to waste
and so is our misused energy
or the passion we lose
or the moments we degrade
by questioning everything
and forgetting to live
(in the moment)
and believing the worst possible scenarios
over the greatest possibilities,
all because of one thought that went wrong,
and then like something beyond our control
that one thought branched off
like a crooked lightning bolt
that broke the sky
with a crash of devastation.

It is nothing more than a problem with the mind
and yes, the mind can be ongoing
and hence,
so can the problems which tend to grow
and grow like the soured fruit
from a poisonous vine
and eventually,
the projections in our head
take on the highlights of catastrophe,
and next, we think ourselves sick
or we worry ourselves into a panic,
and then, as the fray unfolds in our mind,
so do the outcomes
which seem to happen—just as expected
or as we figured
because, of course,
we think, therefore, we are.

Or should this be me and only me,
I think,
therefore, I am
and so my fate becomes my worry
or my future becomes like my predictions
to which, all of this is nothing more
than a result of one thought that went wrong
and multiplied into more;
in which case,
we seldom see how the worst of our projections
become so
because we’ve acted upon their behalf
to make them real.

It’s a habit to break.
I understand that.
Negative thinking
or negative assumptions
are all a sign of problematic thinking
which can be solved by not engaging
However, it’s like the saying goes:
no one has ever calmed down
simply being told
to calm down.

But, I really do want to calm down
or, if anything
I just want to be better.
And who doesn’t?

I suppose this all begins with a thought
because, let’s say that yes,
it’s true,
I can think myself sick
or that I can think myself into ruins.
Then . . .
if this is so,
then it would also be so that I can think
myself well, or into feeling better
and so
from the ruins,
I can think of how to rise from the ashes
and redeem myself
one thought at a time.

Yes.
I think I like that.