You have to laugh.
You have to laugh, like,
as if this is your main priority
because like a muscle that is not used,
or like a sun that is not seen,
you can lose sight of its beauty
or lose your sense of humor,
or like an atrophy, you can lose strength
or dexterity, or worse,
you can literally lose your mind.
And that’s the worst loss of all.
You cannot forget to have fun.
Not now.
Not ever.
This is critical to us
and all of our personal systems because
if there is no fun, and there is no laughter,
we tend to lose sight of the goodness between us.
And that too is another loss
that I am not willing to endure.
This is no different from losing the love of my life
and I’ve lost enough already;
therefore, losing you (my love)
is simply not an option.
But . . .
we have to remind ourselves to let go.
We have to let the fun happen.
Maybe we need a little push
or maybe we need a plan,
but as long as we allow ourselves to have “a time”
or to live in the moment
and allow ourselves the right
to leave all of our stressful topics to the side,
or keep them off limits except, of course,
the amazement of a good time
or we can talk about the comparison of a laugh
that was almost as equal to the laugh we just created.
We have to understand and acknowledge
that the pressure needs to be off,
and there doesn’t need to be a script anymore.
(I have to hold myself accountable to this.)
We have to laugh.
We have to lose ourselves
in the goodness of the moment.
I say this because we forget that, yes,
it’s important to be silly or even stupid,
which is not to say the word “stupid” in a derogatory sense;
but more, we need to explore.
We need to remember the feelings
that take place when nothing else matters,
except for the moment, of course,
and we need to remember the value of a good, long,
and hard laugh.
I can think of so many crazy and wild things.
And I swear,
when we get like this
it’s like us against the world.
When it comes to times like this,
nothing else matters. Not even the consequences
which are seemingly worthwhile
because, of course, nothing can beat the experience
of a good time or poking the bear,
or challenging the world.
We need this in our life.
We need more times like this,
at least I do.
But, I have to realize my part in this.
I have to except the fact of “what is”
and allow myself the ability to navigate towards
a new way of living,
which is not to say the past was (or is) so terrible.
But more, this is just a way to part the sea
and find our way to a new life
or a new beginning.
I want to laugh. I want to go and explore.
And this is not to say that every experience
has to be wild or crazy
because there are times
when things are calm and peaceful.
I can figure this with moments like, say,
sitting by a lake
and fishing in the quiet
of a summery afternoon.
No one else was around.
Nothing else mattered.
Nothing mattered and certainly not the pressing news
or the problems at hand,
not the troubles of the heart,
nor the worries about the future.
No, it was enough to lose oneself
in the nothingness of a warm
and peaceful afternoon beneath the sun.
It was enough to laugh about a fish
that fell from the hook
and landed on its head,
and then bounced back into the water
with “brain damage.”
I could use a day like this.
I could use a long walk along the beach.
(Now, that would be a great idea.)
I could use some time to just cut ties
with the pressing features on the mind,
and yes, I could use a day
where there is no talk about anything,
per se,
and there is nothing more than the overall enjoyment
of a good moment
where the sun is high, the sky is blue,
the waters along the ocean are gentle
and the sound of waves
is like a great welcome from Mother Earth.
To me, these are the whispers of destiny and fate
who say, “don’t worry for now.”
Just shut up for a second
and just enjoy.
I want something like this.
Maybe this is a great way to “take a break,”
as we say
or, as we should say,
because life comes
with only a limited number of opportunities;
in which case, these windows can close
and so can the cases of us enjoying the world
(together)
and in my heart, that is not something
that I am willing to lose
or let go.
I think that first and foremost,
fun is absolutely necessary and moreover,
I believe that it is a strong
and personal imperative that, at some point,
we have to go absolutely,
and completely crazy.
As in . . .
“fucking nuts!”
In fact, not going crazy is enough to make us crazy –
which it has
so, I think now is a good time
to let the wind blow through our hair.
I think now is the right time to turn the volume up,
let the music play as loud as we can make it,
and if we dance,
then let’s dance
until we can’t dance anymore.
Or, if the lights turn low
or even if they don’t . . .
then we can lose ourselves in the intimate way
and say nothing
but allow our bodies
to say everything.
Or, if nothing else,
now is a great time to lose ourselves
in the quietest moment
and share something, like,
maybe some frozen ices
or some kind of fruity concoction
that we can share while sitting outdoors
or outside of some cafes
to enjoy the flavors
and have a kiss
or two . . .
The Written Addiction 