What Now? – Chapter 24

I see them often, young and crazy as ever. Defiant as ever too, and outraged, as if their youth is insulted by the rules and laws. To them, the powers that be and the authorities who rule over their life, from teachers to counselors, and from the law to parents, or anyone who opposes, I have seen the young ones and the crazy ones. I have seen them flare off like a rocket to explode or burn up and simply fizzle away.

I have sat with them and listened to them. I have listed their complaints and spoken with them about this, at great length.
I have often wondered if this was no different from me and my rebellion which, in fairness, nothing is ever the same thing.

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What Now? – Chapter 23

There needs to be a moment when you just push through. Understand?
This needs to happen. Or maybe this just “has to” happen so that you can see the fruit from the vine. You can see the benefits from your labor or the purpose from behind the pain.
You can see the horizon ahead, and while not all has been healed or cured, the sun is about to rise. There is an actual way or escape, and therefore, recovery is possible from anywhere.
Truly . . .

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What Now? – Chapter 22

When there’s nothing left or nowhere else to go, or when the ride stops and finally, the eyes open to a realization that forces you to understand that yes, this has been in the works for a long time now. Yes, all signs pointed you to this very same place, and while you might not like this, and you never wanted things to go this way, either way, the truth is still the truth. Where we are is where we are. Like it or not.

Of course, it’s easy to point fingers. It’s easy to assign the blame to someone else. It’s easy to fight and argue; but again, the truth is still the truth, and no amount of pretending or blaming someone else can avoid this fact.

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What Do You Know (You’re Just a Kid) Ch. 12

No one ever told me that it’s possible to think your way out of trying to be your best. Then again, I suppose a piece of me already knew this.
The mind can either be a trap with hooks and snares or if we allow ourselves, we can think our way into being our own best friend.
I see this and, quite simply, I offer this as a training that needs to start when we are young. I say this because my habitual youth was always too caught up in the ideas of shame by comparison of pass or fail.

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The Discovery of Loose Change (and other good things) Ch. 42

Do you want to talk about happiness?
Do you want to talk about finding happiness? Or is it better to say to find that thing, or that source, or that touch or feel? Is it better to say that there is a physical sense to happiness?
And I mean one with a more intimate appeal –
I believe in the beauty of inspiration and yes, I am inspired by beautiful things.

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Prose from the Bucket List – Let Me Make This Clear

I have news for you. There is no “perfect.”
There’s only us and how we are, which is perfect for me because whether I am flawed or blemished, I am completely me. No ifs, ands or buts.
It would be dishonest if I were to say that I am not looking for a cure. It would be dishonest to say that I have nothing to hide or that I have no secrets or hang-ups.

No, I am me, which means I am human, which means I come with a past history, which means I have biases and worries. I have scars and marks. I have fears and concerns.
I also have the unseeable or invisible injuries which is no different from anyone else.

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Prose from the Bucket List – What Do You Wanna Do with Your Life? (Inspired by an old music video)

There is a question that is very simple.
What do you want to do with your life?
I remember this question from back when I was a kid. The reason I remember is because there was a music video by a band called Twisted Sister.
(Remember them?)
In the song, the so-called parent shouted at his so-called son and asked, “What do you want to do with your life?”
Of course, since this was a music video, the so-called son answered, “I wanna rock!”

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Prose from the Bucket List – To Dance and Be Alive

As I move through this new phase in my life and as I enter this new chapter of an unexplored version of me, I can see myself now, and perhaps I can see myself more clearly now more than ever. I understand where I am. From an introspective view, I know that I want to advance to a better level of awareness.
I want to find my place in the circle and create my station in life.
I want to see clearly. I want a world that is unobstructed or unobscured by the blurry distractions which I see in my daily life.
I want to open my eyes more and see more. But also, I want to live more and not be afraid of what I see. I want to do more and not worry about the pass or fail or the rate of success. To hell with swinging and missing, at least I swung. At least I stood up when no one else thought I could – including myself.
By the way, this has always been a common theme in all of my journals because, of course, I want to live a better life.
Who doesn’t?

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Prose from the Bucket List – Preface

It would only seem fair that since this is the start of a new journey for me, then it would only make sense to start this with a new journal as well.
The journal before this was personal. I admit this is true.
Then again, anything written from the heart or anything which is true to the soul is personal.
So, to be true to myself and true to my mission, I have to be true to my word as well.

As always, my aim is to speak to you.
This is why I write the way I do.
I want you to think and feel and see what I’m seeing.

I want to write as if I am talking to you, like two people would speak when no one else is around.
I write to you in the voice of a real person. I have not come here to satisfy the literary snobs or to please the grammar police nor am I here to compete with other writers or to act as some kind of flowery writer with all the cool pronouns.

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Notes from the Neighborhood – Rainy Day

It is early morning and the sky is about to rain. And that’s fine.
I tend to think that the sky can often be in tune with our thoughts and our feelings. For example, sometimes we need a little rain. Sometimes we need something to settle the dust from our crazy little arguments and calm us down with the quiet hush of a gray sky, raindrops hitting the roof and the wind moving through the trees outside.

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